Day 9-Once an Aggie Always an Aggie

      Howdy!

               This post is coming to you a little late so I apologize but I've had a fun filled day of having lunch with my lovely aunt (Hi!) and interviewing for a possible camp job in the summer! Oh so very exciting. Today what I want to talk about is not entirely a memory but more of like a weird foreshadowing on my life. As if my mom was preparing me for when she wouldn't be here, kind of. Yesterday my best friend's little sister was accepted to the best university on earth (so not biased) Texas A&M University! I couldn't be more proud of her and of course her family is super proud of her so they've been posting about her and what not. It kind of fills me with nostalgia. My mom wanted nothing else but to see me get accepted into Texas A&M. She looked into all of the different possible ways to get in and told me about them. The main ones were Gateway and Blinn Team. Since we knew I wouldn't be an automatically accepted we had to keep hope that I would either get late acceptance or one of those above options. I would have never known about these two options if it hadn't been for my mother. She made sure that no matter what I would have plenty of options to accomplish my dreams.

               So it almost seemed more like a back stab from A&M when I got my acceptance letter. It was literally a week after my mom had died that I got my acceptance letter. The one thing she had wanted to see and she just barely missed it. It sucks. So I was not initially happy. I remember not telling my dad or brother at first. I remember just staring at the letter for a solid 30 minutes feeling bitter and straight up anger. And on top of that it wasn't even full acceptance it was temporary acceptance through the program Gateway. The very same one my mom had wanted me to do and told me about. When I finally got over my bitterness it turned into a more joyous thing. Of course I was happy, this was my dream and I would do whatever it took to get into my school.
 
           I wouldn't have changed a thing too. At this program is where I met my two current roomies (Hi I love you Amy & Shannon like a lot a lot. Don't leave me K thanks bye). It was at Gateway where I saw firsthand God's divine plan in how my roommate, Shannon, and I magically got paired up to live together and how it all just made sense in the end (This sentence will only make sense to a few who know went down that summer!) Gateway gave me a chance to grow and accept myself and be completely and utterly vulnerable. So for that I am thankful. I am thankful that I didn't get full acceptance because I would've really missed out on some extremely awesome people I am blessed to have in my life.
     
             And in my mom's own weird style she somehow knew I would need to be made aware of Gateway. So in a sense I'd like to think that she knew that I'd make it in. I know she would've been thrilled to know that one day I will finally earn my Fighting Texas Aggie Ring and it will be made from hers.

       I couldn't have done it without you mom, but you know that already!

  Love Always,
Erin

P.s.
Sorry not sorry for all the feels in this one but this is whats on my heart today so....Enjoy it somehow please haha