Well now that I have had sufficient sleep I should be able to write more eloquently (Or so we can hope). Well this is one of the first spring breaks I've had where the weather is super gloomy, ick! I'm glad I didn't have any plans to go tubing or anything that included being outside in this gray weather. I suppose we had tentative plans to go to a baseball game in College Station buuut my dad cancelled that when he saw the forecast and I'm glad he did because now we get to have dinner with my grandparents and some of our distant cousins (I think?). Whenever I think about this family I always remember when they offered to cook us dinner, when my mom was on chemo, and how excited my mom and I would get because she is one heck of a cook! And she always included a homemade dessert...yum. When tragedy strikes I really enjoy watching how a community comes together to support each other. It is truly awesome and really gives me hope, even on a gloomy day. Such as today.
Memory #40
So I got a couple of test grades back recently and they weren't as good as I thought they would be and it kind of bummed me out. I've never been a really super good test taker anyway but its kind of bummy when you think you did real awesome but find out you were just of kind of adequate. Ugh! (This is my being super whiny, sorry) My mom was incredibly smart, she would do all of these different puzzles and brain teasers just for funsies and they were almost never to much of a hassle for my mom to complete. Even a couple of days before her arrival in heaven I remember her watching Wheel of Fortune (or something similar) and being able to solve the word puzzle in almost not time flat. She was a real smart lady. I found myself always comparing myself to the kind of student I envisioned my mom being and I couldn't live up to that standard.
One of the first classes I took at college was Political Science 207 and I did not do so hot. The moment I got my grade back I started to doubt myself. I remember getting in this mindset of thinking, "Why am I even in college? I can't even do well in a basic required course." It was real disappointing. Then one day I was rummaging around in my mom's office and found an old report card from Texas A&M (You know from when they actually sent out report cards) and I noticed something that I find to be particularly awesome.
If the print is too small for you to read, the last class is Political Science 207 and wouldn't you know? We got the same exact grade. I suppose its a good reminder that a grade from a class doesn't measure how smart you actually are. That's a real comforting thought. I feel like my mom still finds way to comfort me even when she can't do it physically. Even if its through something as simple as a similar report card. I suppose its true when they say a mother's work is never done.
Love Always,
Erin
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